Checking in because it's been a while. I don't even want to check the last post and see how long it's been. I'm writing tonight because I just really felt like it. I really missed you, the ones who read my poems and lyrics and random thoughts... I missed the connection. I haven't had a dry spell poetically--I've continued to write during my absence... I just haven't posted any of it. Why? I have no good reason. Sometimes I withdraw. Even on the net. I shouldn't. This space where I can be creative is where I belong.
This year has been a very interesting one. I've done a lot of soul searching, a lot of figuring out what I really want from life. I've also done a lot of things that I don't really want to do, like running my writing business to pay the bills. I love to write, and I'm thrilled to be able to do it for a living--but anyone who knows me at all knows that I'd rather be writing songs for a living. I don't know if I'll ever get to that point. The industry is an "interesting" place right now to say the least... It's in transition. I don't know where that's headed... but what I do know is that I'll never be fulfilled if I don't at least try to follow my passions. I'll be a pissed off, bitter old woman, wondering where my life went and why I didn't try.
So right now I am back to keyboard lessons, real ones this time around, not just messing around on my own and trying to figure things out... I'm studying publishing deals and how that whole side of the industry works... and I'm really trying to figure out how I can step out of my fears and just give it my best shot. I've accumulated a lot of knowledge in this lifetime when it comes to songwriting. Now I need to implement it, and God help me, have the guts to share it.
You want some new poetry? Good. I've got some. Come back Wednesday and it's all yours. :)
Love you guys... seriously whoever is reading this, I love you for reading it and for sticking with me through all the drama and nonsense and years of nothingness. We're going to get there and we're going to get there together. And I am going to post here a few times a week from here on out, guaranteed. Stay tuned... and if you aren't on the mailing list or RSS feed please join one or the other stat! ;)