I wish you could see me right now. Well, maybe not. No makeup, hair that could use a shampoo, and I'm wearing a sweatshirt and my gramma's old pajama pants. :) It's quite a look. But I'm completely in my element right now. I'm "in the studio." For all practical purposes I am, anyway. Now and then I break out the mic and this office turns into my own personal recording studio. My significant other is away for the night (hi baby, I miss you!), so I'm here all alone with my lyrics, working on songs that I've written in the last couple of years.
I'm sipping Tazo Tea (thanks again to Chris for the care package! I am enjoying the hell out of it...), hanging out with the pets (or more accurately, serenading them), and I am so chill right now it's not even funny. I wish I could have this good of an attitude every moment of the day. But that's why I get into those funks--because I don't have enough of this.
So who stops me from having amazing nights like this? ME. Nobody but me. I have always been obsessively private about my writing and recording time. There are four of us living here. Waiting for a time when nobody else is home is like waiting for rain to fall. (Any Hilary Duff fans out there? That was an "A Cinderella Story" reference. Nevermind, I'm alone in my Duff love. Whatever! haha)
Everybody knows that I'm a writer and a singer, so why do I try to act like I'm not? I guess I see everyone else around me doing their thing and going about their business, and compared to that, working out melodies or doing vocal lessons isn't exactly a "blend into the background" activity. But WHO CARES? Even if I'm having a bad day and it sounds like crap, who cares? Apparently only me.
So I'm going to start doing what I need to do, no matter who is home and no matter who might accidentally overhear. If you're going to be scarred by hearing my creative process, then hell, put some headphones on! :)
I hope you guys can sense the sarcasm in this post--I'm seriously not writing from a place of frustration--and if I am, it's frustration with myself. I've wasted a lot of time waiting for complete privacy and complete perfection. Two things I'll never achieve. The answer as usual is to be myself. And that's exactly what I'm going to do.
Well... I'm going to go brew another cup of tea and work on another song. These are the songs you'll finally be hearing this year, in beautiful 2008... So send some positive energy my way, and stay tuned...