The Good Patient - NaPoWriMo, Day 4

The fear of doing the wrong thing
is greater than that of doing nothing.
When doctors are just guessing
and throwing drugs at my pain,
all I can see is time ticking by
with dangerous assumptions being made.

I try to be the good patient,
but am I throwing breaths and heartbeats away?
Am I losing years and months and days?
I am so afraid.

So much technology is within reach.
I'm now insured but it's withheld from me.
Wouldn't want to waste a dollar
on diagnostics to be sure.
Just write a prescription,
remind me I'm young
and that I look healthy
so I must be healthy.
I worry too much and
the hurt means nothing.
Go home and stop complaining.

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