The Land of Loving Me - a poem about putting myself first
No matter what,
from here on out,
I'm taking care of myself.
Seasons and seasons of putting others first
and focusing on outside perceptions
instead of what I think and feel
has led me here,
to the land of loving me
and moving confidently along.
I can invest my time and energy
and still not have you see me.
I can explain until I'm blue
but you'll still view me through
a lens of you.
That used to make me see red—
make me charge through our dynamic
like a Taurean rushed to change.
But let me settle into my Scorpion ambition
and hone in on the grand scheme.
It's a mystery still
but not a single piece
is what you think of me.
This globe is cold enough
for me to finally understand
that looking out for me
has to come before
caring for you.
You will survive and even thrive,
bettered by the tough love treatment.
I will finally feel this life is mine.